home sick

It's funny how after a year away coming home is such a wonderful thing and so hard to deal with. I had been warned by many that it would be a challenge to get back into the groove but somehow until you're there it doesn't seem like it will be that difficult.

I liken it trying to jump on to a merry-go-round when it's being pushed by all the older kids. You just...can't...quite..grab...hold. You know how to do it but it seems your always just that little bit slow/fast.

Part of the problem is that my expectations are so high. I have refused to take into account that there would undesirable experiences here. It's quite funny because I was very patient with myself when I felt down or something didn't go as plan while travelling....while now it causes chaos to ensue.

It seems I need to slow down, step back and just appreciate home...for what it is...good, bad, funny, happy, sad, angry....it's like any other place but better cause it's Home.